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Shadows from Across the Way By Delinda McCAnn

5/29/2018

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Victorian Village


On Tuesdays, I start harvesting flowers to sell on Thursday. I’d scrubbed out a bright orange plastic bucket and filled it half way with hot water. I found my flower cutting scissors and started wandering the yard searching for green. Most of my plants inside the deer fence were still too tender. I’d have to get salal and huckleberry from the woods.

I call my small woodland The Enchanted Forest. Most days I think that is just a charming name. Other days, I wonder about that forest. Sometimes out of the corner of my eye, I see shadows where they shouldn’t be. I slipped out the side gate and into the woods. 

Carrying my bucket on my arm I started cutting a mix of huckleberry and salal. I occasionally found a salmon berry with bright magenta flowers. These I put carefully in my bucket, detesting their sneaky little thorns. 

The wind blew cold as I worked my way among the tall evergreens. As it whispered though the treetops, I thought I heard music. Perhaps it was only the wind chimes on eves of the house. 

“You, can’t bring that bucket with you here.” I thought my over-active imagination spoke to me. 

Maybe it was a trick of the gust of wind that seemed to speak to me. “Let me put it on the bench.” 

I closed my eyes against the wind that blew fir needles and cones out of the trees. The wind fell. The ground seemed smooth beneath my feet. I looked down to find myself standing on a wooden deck.

A strange man held out his hand. “Come, we can take the trolley into the city.”

I blinked. Behind me stood a wooden building, painted red with gold and black trim. An open  wooden trolley stood on tracks in front of me. Beyond the trolley, I saw a marsh full of reeds, cattails and small willows. Hills rose up beyond the marsh. I felt a bit dizzy and confused. Everything seemed familiar but distant. I took a good look at the man who was holding out his hand to assist me onto the trolley. He seemed personable enough with a light red beard and reddish brown hair. He had dark eyes set in a swarthy complexion. “Do I know you.”

“We’ve seen each other before. We’re neighbors. This is where I live. Come see my town. I guess you’d call it a village, but it’s very beautiful.”

My curiosity and sense of familiarity with the man overcame my sense of disorientation. I stepped onto the trolley and sat on one of the wood slat seats. Glancing at the other passengers, I saw an older woman wrapped in a heavy wool cape with a basket on her lap. Two boys in wool pants and shirts chased each other around brass posts that ran down the middle of the aisle to the back of the car. 

The trolley lurched forward. My new friend grabbed the aisle post where he stood and said to the driver, “Take it easy Knute. My lady friend here isn’t used to your wild driving and such speed.” 

I looked out the window to hide my smile at this comment. As compared to driving the freeway the swaying trolley seemed tame at maybe ten miles an hour.

We rounded an outcropping of rock and buildings sprung up on both sides of the trolley. I saw bales of hay or straw on a wooden platform with an unpainted wood warehouse behind. We rolled past a couple small vacant buildings, then past a bar. I caught a glimpse of men sitting alone at tables before we passed a building painted white. After a faded blue building and one of red brick we slowed to a stop beside another red station with its gold and black trim. I heard the sound of running water as soon as the screech and rattle of the trolly subsided. 

My new friend grabbed my hand. “Come, this is the best stop for us. You’ll have to walk a bit to get to the shops, but you can see more of the town this way.”

I followed my friend off of the trolley and entered the station. “Where does the trolley go from here?”

“Upriver. It’s mostly residential out there.”

We exited the station onto a wide boardwalk between rows of buildings. Peeking through open doors and windows, I saw metal objects I took to be farm equipment in one building and sacks full of something piled in neat rows in another.

“We’re coming to the tanners. Better cover your nose.”

“Huh?” A stench of rot, urine and char assaulted my nose. I pinched my nose closed with my fingers. My eyes stung and watered. 

Beside me the man quickened his footsteps and I hurried to keep up. We passed a couple more buildings that appeared to be one story on my right, but glancing down, I could see they backed into a hillside, and I was seeing the second floor with another floor below and the glint of water beyond the first floor.

“River is down there. Those buildings open onto it. Come, we’ll go uphill here.

He led me to a set of wood stairs that climbed the hillside beside a row of unkempt bushes. I felt mist on my face and looked up to see a waterfall cascading down above us. We turned away from the waterfall and climbed stone steps along the face of the hill. Occasionally a building rose up on the downhill side. Soon the buildings grew closer together and had balconies over the stairs. Finally, we passed through a tunnel formed by a building that stood on both sides of our path with skybridge above the path. We turned a corner and stood at the end of a long street lined with both painted and red brick buildings. I saw several pocket parks. Behind me a waterfall tumbled down the face of the cliff in a hundred little cascades. Beside me stood the brick facade of a bank. 

“Come, this is mostly offices and commercial buildings on this end of town.”

We walked for another ten minutes before we came to a set of shops with goods set up along the edge of the broad road. The grocery with odd round fruits and leafy vegetables was easily recognizable. I pinched my nose again when we walked past the butcher. 

“Don’t you have a scented handkerchief?” My guide asked.

“No. I’ve never owned such a thing.” I wanted to smile at the look of surprise on his face. I chose to explain. “Where I live, we have smelly things, but they’re kept away from where people walk and live. Our meat doesn’t smell because we keep it cold all the time.”

I paused to finger balls of wool in baskets beside the door to what I thought of as a knitting store although it had a big loom in the back.
 
The people we passed looked much as the passengers on the trolley. They dressed in wool. Some wore long coats. I saw a few capes. Many of the women wore wool shawls. 

We paused at a pocket park where another waterfall dropped from a rock overhang above. The falling water had hallowed out a basin under it. The basin was full of clothing. I stood and stared as a woman with her wool skirt kilted up above her knees waded into the pool and pulled at a piece of clothing with a hooked stick. She pulled a pair of wool pants out of the water and spread them over a bush and returned to retrieve another article of clothing from basin.

"Huh, must be the local laundromat.” I blinked several times and surveyed the shrubbery adorned with clothing before my guide urged me forward. 

The paved road, or perhaps I should call it a promenade because there were no vehicles here, began to rise again. We crossed a wooden bridge over a stream that tumbled as it rolled and splashed down the side of the hill. From the bridge I could look up and see five waterfalls on the hillside above the town. 

The promenade split and we kept to the left climbing steeper up the hill on a switchback. The walk led us behind the waterfall above the stream we’d crossed on the bridge. The promenade opened before us on the far side of the waterfall. Here, the shops were all made from a light granite with seams of quartz running through.
 
“This is the shop you need.” The man paused outside a door and I entered the shop.

“I quickly restrained myself. The shop was full of lacy things. I wanted to finger them all. I saw a table runner I just had to touch. It felt like silk. A ruffled baby gown hung from clothes pins on a line along the wall.” I suddenly became aware of my own gardening coat and jeans as being out of place among so many beautiful things.

A woman in a wool dress stood beside a table, folding lace tablecloths or maybe they were bedspreads. 

“Katrina, the lady needs a handkerchief.” My friend gave the woman a kiss on the cheek. With their heads close together, I guessed these two to be close relatives. 

Katrina’s hair had more red in it, but something about her eyes and nose was a feminine version of his. She glanced at me then back to him and raised her eyebrows.

“Just get on with it. She’s our neighbor from the other side.”

Katrina smiled at me and led me to a table covered with handkerchiefs. She had, maybe fifty, small delicate pieces of cloth with lace edges or colored flowers embroidered into the corner. 

I fingered them. I thought they must be wool, but wool so fine it felt more like silk or the finest cotton. I gasped as I picked up one edged in lace with little white flowers embroidered in the corner. I turned it over examining the workmanship. This small scrap of cloth was a work of art. I stared, examining each perfect stitch. “This is lovely. I’ve never seen such beautiful stitching.”

Katrina smiled at the man behind me. “Here, I’ll wrap it up.” She took the handkerchief. “I wrap them in paper scented with flowers. Do you prefer rosemary or lavender?”

“Lavender. Don’t you sprinkle the scent right on them?”

“No that would stain them. I scent the paper, wrap the handkerchiefs in it, and they pick up the smell without staining.” She wrapped the handkerchief and handed me the small packet. 

“But I don’t have any money with me.” I suddenly became aware of myself again.
 
“Don’t worry about it. I’ll take care of that.” The man took the packet and put it in my pocket. “We need to get on our way.”

We walked past a few shops then entered what could only be a bakery judging from the smell of baked goods wafting out the door. The man led me through the bakery and out to an open-air terrace dotted with tables and benches for seating.
He pulled out a bench for me to sit. “Enjoy the view. I’ll order.”

Off to one end of the terrace, a waterfall crashed down among rocks, then bounced back up in a mist that covered everything with a sheen of moisture. In front of me the scene opened up over a river valley. I could see for miles in either direction up and down the valley. The river wove in and out among islands of grass and willow. The hills on the far side were blue in the misty air. I stood so I could peer over the edge of the terrace to the roofs of the buildings below me. From above, I saw that the buildings flowed down the hill in rows from one story to the one below. The rows of buildings were punctuated by rows of shrubbery and waterfalls.

The man returned, carrying a tray, biscuits, cups, and a teapot. Behind him two women carrying trays turned toward the table farthest from the waterfall. My eyes followed the bone china cups on their tray. One cup had stripes of flowers in shades of blue and the other rows of green leaves with gold leaf around the edge. I thought the cups were particularly pretty. Our teacups were plain white with small white flowers and silver leaf around the the rim. I didn’t say anything about those cups but glanced suspiciously at the ones on the other table. 

Our little lunch distracted me. I hadn’t realized I was hungry. We had something that must be made much like a scone with seeds and berries in it. We had honey for our scones. I would call our tea lavender-spice with honey. 

As I sat licking the honey off of my fingers and still eyeing those teacups, an older man leaned out the door to the kitchen. “Omath, the riverboat is coming.”

My friend jumped to his feet. “Come, it’s time to go.” He grabbed the sleeve of my coat and hurried me toward the door.

“Where are we going?”

“You’ll take the riverboat home. It’s the fastest way.” He led me at a brisk trot down stairs, past the wye where we’d turned uphill. We went down a switchback and into a square squat white building with gingerbread trim on the front.

A man behind a counter called to us. “Hurry, the boat’s almost here. It can’t wait long.”

We picked up our pace as we raced down a flight of stairs and out onto a landing beside the water. Looking left, I followed the water to see a two story building drifting toward us. Men on the landing ran toward the riverboat and caught at the ropes tossed from its deck.

Omath led me toward the edge of the landing. “I’ll help you on the boat. Get off at the same trolley stop, go through the station from the river side and that should get you home. I hope you liked my city.”

“It’s beautiful and fascinating, but where is this place we’re at.”

He took a deep breath and let it out. “Almost next door.” He turned and watched the boat glide into place. “Here you go. Watch your step.”

The boat didn’t have a gang plank or anything so fancy. I merely stepped over the crack between the landing and the drifting boat. I looked down and saw inky black water below me. As soon as I was aboard, the boat moved forward again. 
A man in a black uniform with silver braid held a door for me. “Sit on this side of the boat. It’s dryer and you can see your trolley stop. I’ll come make sure you get off at the right landing.

Riverboat is a bit of a misnomer for this boat. Carnival ride would be a closer description. I’d just sat down at the open window when the boat dropped straight down. I grabbed one of the bars across the window. The boat surged forward. I saw buildings flash by then the green of shrubbery followed by the mist of a waterfall. The boat slowed and drifted toward another landing.
 
We’d almost come to a stop. I watched as a group of small children dressed in wool hats and capes surged onto the boat. Each child carried a heavy looking bag over one shoulder. School children, I thought. I watched them scramble for seats on the far side of the boat. 

We dropped and surged forward again then slowed. A noise as if we were entering a huge rainstorm drew my attention forward. On my side of the boat I saw us approach a rock wall with ferns growing among the rocks. The boat tipped and water poured over the far side. The children squealed and held out their hands toward the waterfall as we passed under. We drifted toward another landing. 

We picked up more people, mostly laborers, I guessed from their worn and patched clothing. I tried to be inconspicuous as I held my nose. The boat dropped and surged forward. By now I guessed the boat was moving through a series of locks. I couldn’t hear the sound of a motor and wondered if the boat had one and how they got it to the top of the hill again.
 
Out of the corner of my eye, I noticed the children grow quiet. I looked at the passing buildings, noting they were growing more rough and farther apart. I tried not to smile as the children began to point and stare at me in my jeans and synthetic coat. I must look quite outlandish to them. 

The boat slowed almost to a stand still and I looked for another landing, hoping to see the red and black of my trolley station. The other passengers grew quiet. The uniformed man I’d met earlier leaned over my shoulder. “Best hold on tight to something.”

I looked at the far side of the boat. The children were gripping railings with one hand and their bags with the other. The laborers braced their feet and held onto rails. I took a firm grip on the rail along the window and another across the seat in front of me just as the boat almost stood on its front end. We flew forward with boiling water surging up beside us. A great wave met us when we reached the bottom of the falls. It poured over the boat and ran across the deck. The boat raced forward at a good clip. We were in the main channel of the river now.

Outside my window I recognized the marshy area near the trolley stop. The boat slowed and hung to the starboard bank. The children moaned and glared in my direction. 

I looked out the far window. We’d left the main channel and were drifting down a canal. The boat slowed again. I felt as if we were standing still. I watched as my stop drifted toward me. I double checked the hills and marshy area to be sure this was the same station where I arrived. I stood as the station floated closer. 

The uniformed man appeared beside me. “I’ll help you Ma’am. Now Omath always goes through the station from this side. That’s important if you want to get home.”

The boat slowed to where I could step ashore. Yellow footsteps painted on the wooden dock led me into the station. I pushed the door open and passed through. I felt the cold wind on my face, and my stomach turned over. The grass was littered with pinecones. I shook my head and wondered why my orange flower bucket was on the bench. 

Scowling over having gotten so involved in one of my daydreams, I attacked the salal, cutting it back until I had three dozen stems in my bucket. While I worked, I scolded myself. I’m going to have to pay more attention to the here and now. That fantasy seems so real, it’s almost as if it was an hallucination. It felt good though—so fascinating.

I looked at the clock when I came in. How was it that I’d only been outside ten minutes and cut so much greenery? I felt chilled and my clothes were damp. I think I’ll change into something warm and dry.

​I felt the pull of my recent daydream compelling me to examine my china cabinet. Telling myself that a reality check would help dispel the compulsion of the daydream, I approached the glass cabinet. My eyes traveled to the middle shelf. I stared at the empty saucers where my blue flowered saucer sat without it’s matching teacup and beside it the green leaved saucer sat empty. I stood frozen in my place. After a minute or maybe two passed, I forced myself to reach into my pocket. I pulled out a packet of paper and sniffed the lavender smell. I unfolded the paper packaging and examined the exquisite handkerchief. I stared. I could hear inside my head the man saying we’re neighbors. Perhaps so. Neighbors but how and where?
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The Symbolist - by Anna Shomsky

5/22/2018

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Jane woke up from uneasy dreams with that sense of almost grasping a truth that dissipates with the morning light.

Jane often wondered about her dreams. She had bought dream books to help her analyze them, but found that she never dreamt about bears, or losing her teeth. She dreamt about people she knew, or people she didn't know, but recognized in her dream to be her father, her sister, a long lost love.

Jane felt that reality was not meant to be understood rationally. It was a symbol system, meant to be decoded, to be interpreted. Reality is fundamentally surreal, and the best method to understand your own mind and the intentions you hide from yourself is to analyze your dreams.

People spend their lives learning how to lie to themselves. But dreams cannot lie.

Jane kept a dream journal, in which she wrote the details of her dreams, anything with emotional salience that remained in her mind after waking. On rereading it, she found that she could recall all the details again of what otherwise would have been forgotten, but gained no deeper understanding of her own mind. She felt like a teenager in school, trying to read works of literature that were a bit too deep for her  to understand and required a well of experience that she was lacking.

Once a week, she went to Cafe Luna to reread the week's journal entries, and to try to make sense of her thoughts. The journal itself was large and covered in tissue paper in various shades of blue, suggestive of an ocean scene. On it in bold letters she had written “Dream Journal” to distinguish it from her poetry journal.

One morning, likely a Monday, when dreams are all that remain of the weekend, she was perusing it, taking notes of elements that appeared frequently that week: a dog barking, a stuffed orca whale, a sea shell that broke in her hands. A woman passed her by, and, without saying a word, dropped a business card in front of her. The card was glossy and contained a picture of a woman in a diaphanous robe with flowing hair, out in a forest somewhere. Not an actual forest of overgrown brambles and conifers, but an enchanted English forest that looked more like a meadow infested with fairies.

The card said: Madame Olga – Symbologist

The back listed her services, from dream interpretation to marital counseling.

Jane called Madame Olga that day and asked her for help. She made an appointment for Tuesday night, and arrived with her dream journal.

Madame Olga read through it, nodded knowingly, then said, “The trouble with interpreting someone else's dreams is that every individual has an idiosyncratic symbol system. A whale to you means something wholly different than what a whale means to me. To be able to truly decipher the meaning of your dreams, I must first learn your system of symbology.”

“How can you do that?” asked Jane.

“I follow you around, taking notes on your surroundings, on the items and moments that carry emotional weight for you. Then, I apply what I've learned about you to the interpretation of your dreams.”

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Jane stood in line at the grocery store. Behind her stood Madame Olga, not buying anything, notebook in hand. Jane looked over the plastic candy tubes, the plastic games wrapped in plastic shells, the glossy magazines touting who had recently had plastic surgery. She sighed. Olga double underlined something in her journal. Jane went to peek, but Olga pulled the notebook close to her chest. Like any good mystic, she had read some popular physics books, and didn't dare add the observer effect to her work.

On the car ride home, Jane got distracted for a second by a horse running along a fence by the side of the road. She realized just in time that the car before her had stopped, and slammed on the brakes. Olga, after clutching her heart, took note.

Back in the kitchen with her groceries, Jane began organizing. She went to put her pasta sauce away only to discover that she already had two in the cupboard. She dumped all her fruit in the fruit bin. She pulled out the greens and vegetables she had bought for salad, but left them out on the counter in favor of a popsicle. She sat down on her rocking chair in front of the bay window overlooking Puget Sound.

In the distance Jane saw a glimmer on the water that she wanted to interpret as a spray. “I always hope to see orcas here,” she said. “But so far I never have.”

After giving Olga ample time to note the view out her window, she headed to the beach. The weather was cool, and it was the perfect time of day to find shells.

The tide was low and the smell of fish and seaweed hung in the air. Jane picked up a rock and skipped it. She went looking for shells with holes in them. There's a certain type of snail that bores a whole in shells, about a centimeter from the edge, making them perfect for tying together and hanging up as decoration. Once Jane had filler her sandcastle-shaped bucket with such shells, she returned home.

Jane spent an hour tying shells together with twine, then hanging them up on her porch. They gave the place a sweet fishy smell that faded with the afternoon breeze.


The next morning Jane headed to Madame Olga's, dream journal in hand. She had faithfully noted every detail she could remember, and used a system of marks that Olga had taught her: a plus sign when she was certain of the accuracy of a description, a minus sign when she was unsure, and a star for bits that were emotionally salient.

Olga offered her coffee and began reading the journal.  It read as such:

Standing on the beach with someone. She has the face of a celebrity, but I don't know which one. I feel like I might know her. I approach and it's my sister. She hands me a shell. The shell has a little hole, and she apologizes for it. “I couldn't find a complete one,” she says. I tell her I like them this way, but then the shell breaks in my hand. I apologize to her. She looks distraught. I know I've done something wrong. It's bad to reject or break a gift. She looks away from me and out over the ocean. “There's a whale out there,” she says, but it's only driftwood. We start walking up the beach when a horse comes racing toward us. We jump out of the way just in time. I wake up full of adrenaline.

Jane was disappointed in herself for having such a banal dream.

Madame Olga read it a few times, making some notes.

“You are disappointed in yourself,” she said. “You want to please others. Even when you know their happiness is out of your control, you want to try to make them happy. You fear that the failings of your personality, which everyone has, I'm not calling you a failure, lead to others' unhappiness, and to misfortune. You also feel that your family doesn't know you well. They think you seek perfection, when really you seek comfort.

“And the whales,” added Madame Olga, “are your wishes.”

“But I've never seen a whale,” Jane said.

“Exactly,” said Madame Olga.
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The Man in the Blue Plaid Shirt by Delinda McCann

5/16/2018

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Wednesday morning I sat proofing the manuscript for my latest novel, Lucy. At precisely ten eighteen, movement behind me distracted me from my search for errant commas. Oh. Oh. Here comes that cat to get between me and the computer. The movement continued toward the front door. I glanced up over my right shoulder.

I very clearly saw a man-figure wearing a blue plaid shirt heading toward the front door. He had dark curly hair, not quite black, but dark. His general build was what I’d call athletic, well muscled and trim without being bulky.  I looked through him to see the front door was closed. I’m dreaming. I thought. My eyes took in his form down to his knees where his legs ended a good thirty inches above the floor. I stared as he drifted through the front door. 

Good Lord, I’m hallucinating. Somewhat panicked, I muttered, “Our Father in Heaven, Hallowed be thy…” as I stood up and stumbled toward the the kitchen for water. I fell against the kitchen door jam and paused to rub my shoulder where I hit it. “…Kingdom and power. Forever. Amen.” Okay, what was that? A dream? An hallucination? My writer’s imagination? I turned on the tap and looked at the water coming out. Is there something wrong with our well water? Am I poisoned?

I got a glass and stood with my back to the sink and the window above it as I sipped my water, trying to calm myself. To tell the complete truth, I didn’t want to see if there was anything outside the house. I gripped the edge of the hard countertop behind me, liking the feel of the hard surface. “Okay ground myself.” I spoke the instruction out loud to force myself to gain control over my imagination. “I see the refrigerator, I see the toaster,” I scowled. “I see where someone splashed something dark, possibly wine, down the front of the cupboard.” I grabbed my spray bottle of bleach water and the dish rag from the sink, crossed the room and sprayed down the front of the cabinet, then wiped it clean with the rag, kneeling down to wipe up the few dribbles on the floor.

I stood up again and looked around. I took a deep breath and let it out. I must have half drifted off going over that manuscript for the hundredth time. It was just a dream. Maybe I need a nice cup of tea. I plugged in the electric kettle, and looked around the kitchen again. Still talking to myself, I said, “Okay girl, get your ass back to work. Discipline yourself. You don’t want to tell Suzanne you still aren’t ready for her to proof.”

I settled myself on the sofa, picked up my computer, and set to work. Delete that comma because that’s a phrase behind it.

I heard a bump, then the front door opened. I looked up and my eyes flew open wide. The ends of some very solid looking two by four lumber drifted forward on the blue clad shoulder. The man gave me a lopsided grin as he nodded. His skin was dark. His dark eyes were almost almond shaped above sharp cheek bones.  His lower half had disappeared up to his hips. His torso drifted along with his head reaching almost six feet from the floor. His movement looked as if he was walking, but…no feet.

I sat frozen as he came toward me with the lumber on his shoulder. 

The wood hit the window beside me with a loud crash and tinkle of breaking glass. I threw myself forward onto the floor and rolled. Looking up from the floor, I watched the man pass through the now-broken window. The lumber still on his shoulder.

Still on the floor, I pulled a sweater off of the chair beside me and covered my head. I curled into a ball and cried, grieving for my lost sanity. I lost all sense of time and place and have no memory of how the day passed.


The light had almost left the room when I heard the sliding glass door open. “I’m home. Honey, are you okay?” I heard something heavy hit the floor as my husband dropped his briefcase. I felt his hand on my shoulder, then the sweater lifted off of my face. “Can you hear me?”

I nodded.

“What happened?”

“I don’t know. It could have been a hallucination-a serious one. Maybe I had a stroke.”

He looked over his shoulder toward the window. “How did the window get broken?”

I tried to pull myself into a sitting position with my hand on my husband’s nice solid shoulder. I glanced toward the window. “It’s broken.”

“Yes, it’s broken. I’m calling the paramedics for you.” He ran his hands over my head. “Do you hurt anywhere? Did someone hit you? Do you remember what happened?”

I glanced toward the broken window and shook my head. No way was I telling anybody that a transparent man with no lower half walked through my house.

In due course, the paramedics arrived, helped me from the floor to a chair and wrapped me in a blanket from the sofa. They strapped their monitors on me and talked to each other as they took measurements. “Oxygen ninety-eight percent. BP one twenty over eighty…” Then they began with the questions. “What is your name? Who is president.”  I answered the questions correctly, then began with the neurological exam. The police arrived and examined the broken window. I passed the neurological exam. The lead paramedic stood while his partner packed up equipment. “I can’t find anything wrong. I think you were just startled by the window breaking. Could be something about the breaking glass disrupted your inner ear function. I don’t see any need to transport.

The local sheriff finally pulled up his belt and announced, “The window was broken from the inside. We can’t find any object that broke it. My guess is that it wasn’t installed correctly or the house has shifted creating pressure on the window until it blew out.”  He knelt beside my chair. “I can understand why that would frighten you. It would scare the hell out of me too.” 

“Thank you. The whole thing just happened out of nowhere. I’d dozed off while working. The break just kinda slid into my dream, and I was afraid I’d been hallucinating. It feels really good to have other people assure me the window is really broken and there is a rational, scientific reason for it to break.” 

The officer patted my hand. “I understand. Are you going to be okay now?”

I nodded and forced a little laugh. “I feel much better knowing that it wasn’t my imagination. The dream seemed so real and mundane, just someone walking around with lumber over his shoulder, then the window kinda exploded.”

The officer patted my hand and stood. 
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My husband handed me some hot soup. “Eat this. Your blood sugar may be low. That’s probably why you thought you hallucinated.”


Saturday morning I sat in my favorite spot by the newly repaired window.  I pulled my computer into my lap. My husband opened the front door and came inside. “Do you have any idea what happened to some of those two by fours for the new fence? I’ve counted them twice, and I’m missing six.”




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Photos from the Flower Farm

5/9/2018

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The most common comment I hear about my flower business is that my gardens must be beautiful. They are, in a way that others may not expect. Floating row cover over seedlings isn't particularly pretty. Bare stems where I've harvested are boring. Still, some things are lovely and serendipity often produces stunning vignettes.
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Here is a tulip bed before harvesting. I'll sell the dark tulips this week. The yellow and pink were too far gone last week to sell so I get to enjoy them.
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This is Clematis Montana. It likes to sprawl and eat buildings. It's most common pest is men with pruners. On a good year this clematis hangs down over the pergola forming a fantastic curtain of pink along the edge of the patio. Sadly, it suffered a bad attack of man-with-pruners year before last and hasn't recovered to its full glory.
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The dark tulip, Queen of the Night, with rose foliage and late flowering tulips Blushing Maid in the background. The dark tulips highlight other colors. Note how this brings out the tiny purple edge on the rose leaves.
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Half of my property is wooded. I get lots of lovely little combinations like this Solomon Seal with the forget-me-not.
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Weeds. There is no hope that one little old lady can keep up with all that grows on an acre and a quarter. Really, I don't try. I found this combination of trailing blackberry and wild blueberry charming. The trailing blackberries are my favorite to eat but the birds will get all of these.
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Volunteers have move into our woodland garden. These small white flowers are slowly spreading. I have no idea where they came from or what they are. They form small clumps under the trees. The deer don't eat them. They're pretty. I haven't had to spend any energy on them. Sounds like the perfect combo to me.
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This pot is totally the result of serendipity. The large Mullen is a volunteer but I like it with the Creme Upstar and Purple Parrot tulips. The tulips have been in the pot for three to five years. The blooms are quite small. They might grow bigger if I ever thought about fertilizing that pot.
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My herb garden. I keep promising to pay attention to this bed that has been taken over by the sweet bay, at the back of the photo, trailing blackberry, fern and rosemary. The rosemary keeps getting cut back for arrangements and has grown into a bit of an odd shaped plant. We use a chainsaw to try to control the bay. I sell tons of the bay as a green and give it away as a culinary herb. It just bloomed with small yellow flowers that have turned mostly brown. The birds will love the trailing blackberry just before the berries get ripe enough for people.
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I'm so glad lilacs and Scotch Broom bloom at the same time. They are so lovely together. Sadly, the broom is invasive and many people are allergic to both of these plants.
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This baby rhododendron bloomed for the first time this year. It's growing on the edge of the enchanted forest.
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I love dogwoods. The may be the most perfect picture I've taken of a dogwood bloom.
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